Ramblings of insomnia

Once again, I'm having one of those sleepless nights. I really need to get my sleep schedule back on track. For some reason, my sleeping schedule gets better when Jeremy's here. So needless to say, I'm ready for him to get down here for the semester.

Plus it does not help that my mind is constantly working, constantly thinking. Its like I can't turn it off at night. I have to be thinking about something. If I'm not thinking about school, I'm thinking about the wedding. If I'm not thinking about either of those, I'm thinking about how Jeremy and I are going to afford some sort of place to live in hopefully before we're married. And if I'm not thinking about that, I'm thinking about how I'm going to find a job and what not once I'm done with my bachelors. But then I have the dilemma of try and find a job or start on my masters right away. I just have no clue what to do. I don't want to delay starting my masters for too long after the spring of 2010.

I can't really do a whole lot of saving right now. I'm not working due to my class schedule and the hell that I went through back in the fall semester with my last employer. I've practically spent almost all of the money that I had saved up from that job to pay for things that I need, and Christmas didn't help either, and I'm in the midst of paying a credit card off. This summer I probably won't be able to work because I may end up doing my full 6 credit hours of internship (which equates to 40 hours a week). But the thing is, its not paid, unless I can get a paid internship.

I'm really starting to stress over everything. Trying to plan things out, trying to figure out my school plan, I just want to pull my hair out. And I know that I've got to be better with how I handle money. I do good with my spending habits for a while, but then I fall back into my old habits. I'm just aggravated with myself and these habits I have. I just don't know what to do anymore....