Grumblings for the day, after being iced in for almost 2 days..

Life has been some what of a blur as of late. Classes are finally picking up and things are having to be done. I'm enjoying all of my classes but one, Historical Research. Yes, I know that this is a class that I need to do well in, especially when it comes time for my Masters, but its stressing me like no other, even Jeremy, who's taking it with me. Because of the stress from this class, I've been snapping a lot more lately, which is no bueno. Right now, the major stresser is one of the two professors teaching the class. But don't get me started.

But other than the stress of Historical Research, things are going pretty good. Saturday, I get to go pick up like 20 silver branches that I'm buying for $40 from a newlywed. Which of course is saving me a good amount, compared to what it would cost me if I was going to do it myself. I can't wait to post pictures of a bundle of the branches so that it will be easier for me to describe some of my ideas for the uses of these branches as centerpieces and other things.

Turbo Jam is once again kicking my ass. We moved up to a different routine and man, I am so fricking sore, its insane. My abs are killing me like they did when we first started the Turbo Jam program last week. But today we actually had a workout that focused on the abs...I think I used ab muscles that I haven't used in years...Also, we're starting to see more results. I'm ready for the 3rd of February to get here so we can do our next round of measurements and what not.

Well I'm gonna go for now. Tomorrow will be a long day, as I have to go to another Library at another university about 45 minutes away to get some more research done after I go to my only class for the day. Oh the joys of being a commuter student.

~Night~

And the inches are working their way off...

So, I'm proud of myself, as well as Jeremy. We've completed week 1 of Turbo Jam. Though my weight (which I know isn't the best indicator for showing results) has been up and down like crazy. I do find it kind of weird that my weight on Friday, January 16, was the same as yesterdays..lol..but both of which were higher than the Monday's weigh-in weights..who knows. But we've got the workout schedule figured out till the end of May..lol..but this will make us stay motivated. We kind of did some early measurements a little bit a go at our waists, and we've seen the tape get a little smaller already!! Woo Hoo. So needless to say, I'm ready to do more and more..lol. Ok...enough ramblings for now..lol..I might post our before pictures sooner or later..maybe once we have a workout # whatever so the difference can be seen. We'll see though.

And so the motivation continues....

Well, so far, Jeremy and I have worked out twice at the school's wellness center, last Tuesday and Thursday. We ended up not working out between our 2 pm class and my 6 pm class on Wednesday because we were running behind. But today, instead of going to the gym, we used Turbo Jam for the first time cause it came in the mail today!!! We even did before pictures of ourselves so we can see where we were at the starting point with using Turbo Jam and the gym.

I had no idea the Turbo Jam Learn & Burn was going to kick my ass like it did...but then I haven't done a workout video like that in ages. I just have to remember to remind myself and Jeremy to "tuck it" during each move. All I can say is that my abs are killing me and my legs are still burning 2 and half hours later...lol. We're going to try and follow the workout plan in the little book that came with it. So tomorrow night after my 6 pm class, we're going to give Turbo Jam another run through on the Learn & Burn. Thursday and Friday are going to be really interesting because we then move up to the 20 minute workout...so we'll see if we're still functioning come Friday morning.

I'm really pumped up about getting back into shape. I hope that I can stay motivated enough to keep going even when I don't feel like it. But I do know that I'm going to be printing out the before pictures so that they stay as a constant reminder as to how we started out and to help keep us focused to not look like that again. I hope the only other time I start to look like I did in those pictures is 1, when it comes time for me to have kids and 2, if I have another major eye surgery that knocks me on my butt for a while.

I hope that by the 10th workout, I can post that I've lost inches and pounds. But I can't do it with just exercise, I have to do it by being more aware of how I eat and how much I eat.

Wish Jeremy and I luck as we keep moving forward to healthier us'.

And so the workouts begin....

Well, Jeremy and I made it through our first workout day. We had planned to do it this morning but I had a rough night so we decided to do it after I got out of class, which worked out well. We'll be working out again tomorrow between the 2 pm class we have and my 6 pm class so. I'm still waiting for my Turbo Jam dvd to get here. I'm actually really motivated to use it. I really need to get healthier so. I plan on taking "before" pictures of myself as well as measurement come this Sunday.

Well I'm gonna go for now, I need to pull stuff together for tomorrow's classes and maybe read some of "The Prince"....oh joys..lol.

Night

Incoherent ramblings....

So yesterday, Jeremy and I began our resolution to become healthier and what not. I'm getting back into the habit of keeping a food journal and Jeremy's slowly getting used to writing down what he's eaten during the day. We plan to get up and go work out before my class at 11 am tomorrow morning so we can get back into the habit of being way more active. I even ordered Turbo Jam, well got it off of EBay, so we'll see how that goes. I'm really excited for it to get here! I think I'm slowly getting the motivation to get the ball rolling. I hope that I'll be able to stick to this plan and make my goals.

In other news, Jeremy and I's one year anniversary is on Saturday the 17th!! Yay. I can't wait for it to be here. Jeremy and I spent part of tonight just reminiscing about things that happened just over a year ago and where we are now.

What else happened today...hmmm...Classes started up again. It was weird having Jeremy at the same school as me again. I've missed being able to kiss him between classes. Plus it helps that we have a few of the same classes, joys of having history related majors!

Earlier today, I was messing around on WeddingBook like always and came across a post about how to take engagement ring photos. I loved the photos that the poster had taken of her ring at work, and in fact I had to add her to my following list on here! So I checked out the link she posted and decided to get creative myself. Unfortunately, while at school and between classes, I was limited as to posing the ring with objects but I played some more this evening. Here are my just a few, well my faves at least.


Well, this is enough posting for now. I may end up posting some tomorrow....we'll see what the new day brings...

Frustrations......

Yeah, its hard to believe that 2 years from today I will be married to Jeremy. The night started off great with going to dinner at my fave steakhouse and our server ended up being a bride that I had worked with when I was a bridal consultant. When we got home, things were still going good, that is until I asked him a question. After I got his answer, I just want to give up. I try to do something for "us" and then it goes to hell because of something I thought I had made clear to him wasn't clear enough.

A few months ago a came across a thread about different things to do instead of a unity candle or a sand ceremony. One poster brought up a Dutch tradition about having a a chest of sort and place within it a bottle of wine, 2 glasses, and a letter to one another. During the ceremony, the couple and their mothers would each place a nail in the top to seal it. This would then create a keepsake for the couple to use as a emergency kit so to speak for their marriage if things started going down hill for one reason or another. But if it wasn't opened because of an marriage emergency, it would be opened on the couple's 25 wedding anniversary. No matter when opened it would be opened, it would serve as a reminder as to why they loved another and why they married.

Well me, being the creative one, I thought it would be cool to take that idea but do it for a different purpose. My idea was to put it together and then have it opened on our wedding night, kind of a gift to each other that we could both enjoy to help wind down the evening. Well I originally had thought that we would put it together on January 17th of this year on our 1 year anniversary. After telling Jeremy about it, and him liking the idea, I came to the conclusion that it would be a better idea if we were to do it on January 8th, as in today. Jeremy liked that idea even better.

Fast forward to last week, I had been asking Jeremy if he had written his letter yet and he kept telling me that he hadn't had the chance to sit down and write it without being bothered. Ok, how many mornings has he been not bothered in the mornings the last couple of days while Papa was out running errands? Hell, if I had needed some quit space, I would have gone out to the car and do it. Oh wait, I did that back when I lived on campus and the roomies were being loud. Anyways, back to the issue. I was still under the impression that he knew that he needed to have the letter written to me done today, eh wrong. He still thought that it needed to be done by the 17th....HELLO, I've been working on my letter for like 2 and a half weeks trying to get it just right. My letter was written, but needed to be rewritten because the page tore when I was pulling it out of the notebook. Needless to say, I shreaded the letter to Jeremy in front of him. Because of the way it was written, it needed to be put together with his and the glasses today. It wouldn't make sense if we were to put it together on the 17th. So now, I don't even see a point in putting the damn thing together.

I'm broken hearted and hurt. It doesn't help that mother nature has stuck her head out and makes me even more emotional than what I normaly am. I just don't know what to do.......

Ramblings of insomnia

Once again, I'm having one of those sleepless nights. I really need to get my sleep schedule back on track. For some reason, my sleeping schedule gets better when Jeremy's here. So needless to say, I'm ready for him to get down here for the semester.

Plus it does not help that my mind is constantly working, constantly thinking. Its like I can't turn it off at night. I have to be thinking about something. If I'm not thinking about school, I'm thinking about the wedding. If I'm not thinking about either of those, I'm thinking about how Jeremy and I are going to afford some sort of place to live in hopefully before we're married. And if I'm not thinking about that, I'm thinking about how I'm going to find a job and what not once I'm done with my bachelors. But then I have the dilemma of try and find a job or start on my masters right away. I just have no clue what to do. I don't want to delay starting my masters for too long after the spring of 2010.

I can't really do a whole lot of saving right now. I'm not working due to my class schedule and the hell that I went through back in the fall semester with my last employer. I've practically spent almost all of the money that I had saved up from that job to pay for things that I need, and Christmas didn't help either, and I'm in the midst of paying a credit card off. This summer I probably won't be able to work because I may end up doing my full 6 credit hours of internship (which equates to 40 hours a week). But the thing is, its not paid, unless I can get a paid internship.

I'm really starting to stress over everything. Trying to plan things out, trying to figure out my school plan, I just want to pull my hair out. And I know that I've got to be better with how I handle money. I do good with my spending habits for a while, but then I fall back into my old habits. I'm just aggravated with myself and these habits I have. I just don't know what to do anymore....

So many things running through my mind....

Ok, so I'm back to post more but this time its about wedding stuff. I'm in the midst of trying to cut my budget down from what I was hoping it would be. There are some things that I'm going to just shell the cash out for myself. I'm just going to buy stuff here and there. I've already started doing that to a certain extent. I've already bought some of the card stock for the programs. I've already bought our vase deal for our sand ceremony and the little corked vases that we're giving to our parents that mimic the one we'll have after all is said and done.
I've basically got my centerpieces figured out so that I don't have to have flowers for the reception. I'm not really going to have much decoration for the ceremony, just 12 vases that will line the aisle that will have flicker lights in them. I'm really glad that I don't have to have much decoration for the ceremony due to the backdrop of atrium, the state capital! I know that I need to get started on figuring out how I want to do the memory table for Jeremy and I's loved ones and important people in our lives that won't be there due to their passing.
I already have the photographer booked and I can't wait to start working with Kriea! I've got to go talk to the Event Coordinator at the History Center sooner or later, just not sure when right now, especially since school starts back up on the 12th! I want to go see the florist I want to use to see about pricing for the things I would like to have.
I guess I just need to sit down and start making coherent lists of what I've done and what needs to be done since I've got 2 years to go. Part of me is wishing that the wedding would be January 2010, not 2011, because then I know I'd have things done a lot quicker. Darn Jeremy and I being responsible people and waiting till we have our bachelors' degrees and hopefully good jobs, but we'll see if that happens thanks to the wonderful economy. I think Jeremy will have better luck since he's going to be a teacher. Me on the other hand, its a whole different ball game.

Enough rambling for the night now. I have to be up in just under 6 hours so woo hoo!

Starting the year off on the right foot....

So the count down begins...In 6 days I will be starting my New Year's Resolution with my man.

Starting on the 12th of this month, Jeremy and I will begin our getting to the healthy us program. We have 2 years and 2 days until our wedding day and we want to be in the best shape and for that day and for the rest of our lives.

I had tried back in the fall to motivate myself to work out on a continued basis but I lost motivation and ended up having another eye surgery so that put me back on my butt for a month, but I got cleared today at my eye doc appointment!!!

We've set goals for ourselves and have a reward system to strive towards. I'm thankful that I have him by my side this semester. We will be able to motivate one another to be healthier people.

Our plan is to workout at the school's wellness center 3 times a week, and if we have time between studying and writing historical research papers for a class, we'll do extra such as the Wii or maybe I can get him to buy me DDR and he can learn to dance for the wedding..JK. But we've also got fall back plans if we can't make it to the wellness center for reasons.

Besides writing about wedding planning and every day life, I hope to try and note how our program is going. We are also each keeping journals that will help us keep track of when we work out and what kind of work out we did and for how long, as well as keeping track of our weight and what we eat. That will help us keep each other accountable for what we do and don't do.

I may post more later about wedding stuff but for now this is all that I feel like rambling about.